The Book Inside of Me
I have carried a sense for years that there is a book inside of me. Not just a collection of words. Not just another business book, but a story that weaves together the pain, the lessons, the tragedies, the faith, and the victories that have shaped me.
The Arc of a Story
My life has not been neat. It has been marked by tough stories, tragedies, and lessons that cut deep.
I have lived through drug felonies in my twenties, an overdose in 2017, the murder of my brother in 2021, and the loss of our daughter, Ellie Hope, in 2023. I have built businesses that thrived, and I have had partnerships that fractured. I have seen what happens when people stand by you, and I have seen what happens when they walk away.
Those experiences are all my chapters. Each one carries pain, but also a lesson; each one reveals a truth I want to pass on.
More Than One Book
The first book I imagine might be called Pain in the Presence. A story about grief, redemption, and the God who meets us in the gutter.
But I know there are others too. A book on
Visionary Navigation, that talks about
the clarity, peace, and presence leaders need to build lives they do not want to escape from; a book on
community building, and
the power of family, authenticity, and generosity to change the way we lead; and why not even a book on my years in
roofing and construction:
the industry that shaped me, stretched me, and gave me the foundation for everything I do now.
Each of these books would stand on its own, but together they would tell the story of a life lived fully: the mistakes, the miracles, and the mission.
Waiting for the Right Time
I know this will be a big deal. Not because I am special, but because I believe these stories are meant to serve others. I do not want to rush it, I want the right timing and the right people to help me shape it.
When the time comes, I know this will not just be a book, it will be part of the movement. A megaphone for the message of Visionary Navigator, a way to take what we are building in The Pond and bring it to leaders who may never sit across the table from me.
Why It Matters
A book can go where I cannot. It can travel into homes, offices, and hearts, it can sit on shelves and wait for the right moment, when someone needs it most, it can multiply the impact far beyond what I could ever do on my own.
And that is why I believe so strongly that this book inside of me is not just for me, it is for every founder, every dreamer, every leader who feels stuck, broken, or alone.
My Invitation
I do not know when the first page will be written and I do not know who will help me shape it, but what I know is that the book inside of me will come out. And when it does, it will be raw, it will be real, and it will be written to change lives.
If you have followed my story, you are already part of this journey. Thank you for walking with me.
This is only the beginning.
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